FRIENDS?
you know how in primary school, or even now, people used to sign off messages with friends forever or something along the lines of that? at that time, it just felt that way, like we were gonna be friends forever, or maybe then we were just gullible enough to believe that it was just that that'd happen.
but you changed, so did i. i've realized how you've evolved into someone i don't know anymore, i can't read, who's completely different from who i've known all these years, or thought i did. after thinking about that, it just made me re-examine all my friends, past and present. how they've treated me, whether i've actually ever been able to trust them or not. and i realize something. maybe they've always been this way, and i just didn't realize it cos i was so close to her and i never saw her as a whole.
does it matter that i was there when you were upset all those years ago, so repeatedly? not really. does it matter that i didn't judge you for what you said or did, no matter how much it hurt me? not really. does it matter that i was there to give you advice honestly when you wanted it? not really. does it matter that you were the person i trusted most? not really. DID ANYTHING THAT HAPPENED THESE PAST FEW YEARS MATTER EVEN THE SLIGHTEST BIT? NO, NOT REALLY.
______. i know how she is, i've seen her through soso many perspectives before and i've realized something. she's a good friend and all, trustworthy? i've never been able to figure that out. supportive? i'm not sure how. i'm pretty sure she knows what i think of her, everything here. but i do know that she'll help me out through whatever rough patch i have, she's always there for me to complain to (:
my classmates? I LOVE THEM SOSO MUCH! people from other classes may think our class is boring, but that doesn't matter, cos we know what goes on inside, everyone's always so supportive of the others and we're all fairly tight, even though we're all so different. that's just what i love about them (:
and you know what? as for people who say things about me behind my back and treat me so well otherwise? SCREW THEM.
i should've put this in my lit journal.
nah, too personal for vivienne pang.
but you changed, so did i. i've realized how you've evolved into someone i don't know anymore, i can't read, who's completely different from who i've known all these years, or thought i did. after thinking about that, it just made me re-examine all my friends, past and present. how they've treated me, whether i've actually ever been able to trust them or not. and i realize something. maybe they've always been this way, and i just didn't realize it cos i was so close to her and i never saw her as a whole.
does it matter that i was there when you were upset all those years ago, so repeatedly? not really. does it matter that i didn't judge you for what you said or did, no matter how much it hurt me? not really. does it matter that i was there to give you advice honestly when you wanted it? not really. does it matter that you were the person i trusted most? not really. DID ANYTHING THAT HAPPENED THESE PAST FEW YEARS MATTER EVEN THE SLIGHTEST BIT? NO, NOT REALLY.
______. i know how she is, i've seen her through soso many perspectives before and i've realized something. she's a good friend and all, trustworthy? i've never been able to figure that out. supportive? i'm not sure how. i'm pretty sure she knows what i think of her, everything here. but i do know that she'll help me out through whatever rough patch i have, she's always there for me to complain to (:
my classmates? I LOVE THEM SOSO MUCH! people from other classes may think our class is boring, but that doesn't matter, cos we know what goes on inside, everyone's always so supportive of the others and we're all fairly tight, even though we're all so different. that's just what i love about them (:
and you know what? as for people who say things about me behind my back and treat me so well otherwise? SCREW THEM.
nah, too personal for vivienne pang.
posted by melmelmel | Saturday, July 08, 2006
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